annoying feeling inside

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.......................

what I'm feeling inside?!!!!!!

arggghh!!!! Annoying!!!!!!!!!!! really....

o my gosh...

I doubt... Not so sure... No... Not sure...

iiiiihhhhhhhhhhh............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate this feeling!!!!!!!!!!!! arrrgggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!

May 21 2nd

Sometimes....
Late at night.... I awake and think..
if I never wake up in the morning..
Would he ever doubt about my feeling for him?

If there's no tomorrow
Will he ever know how much he means to me?
Did I try in every way to show him every day
That he's my only one

'Cause I've lost love one in my life
who never knew how much I love him
Now I live with a regret
That my true feeling for him never was revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much he means to me
And avoid that second chance
to tell him how I feel

To tell someone that you love
just what you're thinking of
IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES

May 21

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power
Some people live just to play the game

Some people think that the physical things
define what's within
And I've been there before, that life's a bore
So full of a superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you, baby..
If I ain't got you, baby

Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you...

I've been away too long

You were so good to me away..
And when I see your eyes
It breaks your heart
But you just can hide it

Don't look that way to me
It breaks you so, I see

I......
I've been away too long
Now I just can't go on
Now I can't be so strong
I've been away too long

May 17 2009

Andai kamu tau bila menjadi aku
sejuta rasa di hati
Lama tlah kupendam
tapi akan kucoba mengatakan.......

Living in a world so cold
You are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start
and now I'm in love
You took my heart away when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life
Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we stand
we'll never be alone

Now there's a place I want to show you
and dont u know, it's not too far
And there's a place I want to know you
inside of my piano

In my piano there is a garden
where rainbow blooms and shines like star
if u say "no", I beg your pardon
Come inside of my piano

I'll make u laugh and make u sing
And we can play among the stars
And we'll make love and dance beneath the strings
Inside of my piano


We got a little world of our own
I tell u things that no one else knows
I let u in where no one else goes
What am I doing without u??

dicari!!!!.. wkwkwkwk

waaa!!! besok ujian PA!!!
belajar.. belajar... hehehe..

hmm.. what I wanna say is.. apa ya?? hmm..
gw sebel sama org yg bkin gw jealous ato khawatir.. apalagi klo malah tu org yg jealous!!! grr.... ribet tau!!!!!!!! hahahaha!!! a lil' bit strange, but.. yeah.. gtu de..
trus, I like making friends, so gw ga dmen sama org yg ngehalang2in gw bertemen..!!
so, whoever you are, if you fulfill those requirements, I'll choose you later.. wakaakkakakakakakak!!!!!!!!!!!!! da kaya buka lamaran kerja..
dah ah.. mau makan g.. c ya'

I Turn to You

I believe.. One day, there'll be someone who deserves these words from me and vice versa.. He'll be someone who walks with me through the rest of my life.. The one I can run to.. The one I'll turn to..
But, who the hell is he??!!!!! hahaha!!! I'll be patient for waiting.. God knows it..


When I'm lost in the rain, in your eyes I know I'll find the light to light my way.
And when I'm scared and losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around.

When I lose the will to win, I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again
I can do anything 'cause your love is so amazing, 'cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend you're always on my side
Giving me faith taking me through the night

And when I'm down you're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got

For a shield from the storm
For a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you

For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you.

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything
For that one who I can run to

Hari ini adalah lembaran baru bagiku... weqs..!

masa setelah sekian lama masuk siang, hr ini masuk pagi!!! Praktikum PK pulak! grr... blom apa2 uda "Faktor pembekuan... bla.. bla.. extrinsik.."

abis itu, lanjut kuliah di Husada.. pegi nya nebeng djey.. c Disco juga nebeng.. hahaha!! tp qta mampir dlu ke mangga dua!!! hmm... rencananya nemenin djey beli baju buat kuku nya, eh malah qta ikutan beli baju!! wakakakakak!!! besok ujian, hr ini sempet2nya belanja..!! --"

akhirnya, nyampe di Husada.. kuliah jg ga konsen.. digangguin Karnel dkk.. grr... ngantuk pula.. pas pulang, tdur deh di mobil Djey.. haha!! dy ga seneng gt gw tdur!! haha!!
yg lucu, kan lg ngomongin kata2 bijak sm Disco.. ya.. kaya "Mencintai ga harus memiliki" ato "Qta ga mencintai seorang wanita krn dia cantik, tp wanita itu menjadi cantik saat qta mencintainya"... Disco lngsg bilang, "Bullshit tuh sama semua kata2 bijak!!!!" (pake logat Toraja nya).. waakakakakakakakak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! qta ngakak ber 3!!! hahha!!!! ilang d ngantuk gw..

pulang krumah.. hmm.. akhirnya dpt kabar dr Gerald klo dia uda nyampe.. wuihh.. legaa..
pokonya, all the best wishes for him n fam.. *fingered crossed*

hmm.. c kambing.. hahahhahaha!!!! kambing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Best Friends

Best friends are made to be there for you in times of sorrow

They exist to look after you

Make you laugh, make you relaxed

Agreed?

You came to me after I had just split up with him

Spoke to me, made me laugh when I didn't think I could

I asked you to come see me

I was nervous at first, but I still did

I knew it was going to be fun

But not as fun as in the end

I forgot all my worries, and I laughed and joked

And that the best time ever

Now it would seem weird without you

Like some part of me was missing

The days we spent are fun

Because we know we are growing an unbreakable bond

Best friends are made to be there for you in times of sorrow
They exist to look after you

Make you laugh, make you relaxed

You do exactly that

today

hmm... today..
yea, I feel a lil' bit lonely, coz one of my friend went to US last night.. hope to hear from u soon, pal..

I felt that way all along the day until.......
g nyerempet mbl tmen g..
o my gosh!! hahahaha!!!! I thought she wasn't serious that time, but.. well..... I've made a mistake.. hahahaha!!!!!

Our unexpecting break time

today...
my friend, Djey and I went to a place in our break time. well.. hahahahaha!!! we visited Djey's boy (ooppss...), Handy..
a lot of fun we've got there though it just took 30 minutes.

heiiiiiiiiii

Heii...
Yesterday, I watched movie with my friend, Gerald.. Knowing... yea, such a good movie.
But he didnt come alone, he was with his bro, n his friend. Forgot their names.. hahaha!!!
I had so much fun.. Just like I said, I forgot how to have fun, but I remeber it now.. You must think, what kind of life I lived before..? hahahahaha... Dont wanna think 'bout the past.. Just think 'bout the present and future..
Oww... He'll go to US in 4 days.. ahh... wishing him and his family all the best..
c ya'

Welcome Back...

FREE
All my life I've always wanted to have one day just for me
no one to say when to eat or read or leave or stay
That will be the day...
Soon I feel forever be free...

Haahhh...
Finally, I got my freedom back.. I dont know why I let someone taking control of my life. Hey! This's my life anyway. I must control it myself!! Yeah... I dont wanna waste my time. Time wont come back. I wont go with regrets. I deserve all the best things in my life.
Pain... It's all human. That's a usual thing. I wanna live my life with all my decision, not yours, hers, his, or someone's. I'm sick with all those things! Grr..
If anyone of you read this, whoever you are, please.. Do anything you want, but you know the limit and always think of making people happy, esp. those whom you love. Nobody wants to be sad. Nobody wants to be lonely.
Okay... bye!!!! ^^
I've got a special mssg. hahahaha!!!!!
C ya'
Regards,
-Willy Wonka-
-Aberforth-

ZZzzzz

Happy Kartini Day!!!!
LOL

For boy, by Wonka

It feels just like yesterday
when we used to talk
when you used to come to me
showing me that you love me

I remember when I taught you English
I remember when you taught me Physic
We didn't care what they say
It was just both of us.. You and me..

But some things went wrong
some because of me
I didn't expect to be that way
Hurt your feeling deeply

Boy, if I could apologize
I would tell you
that I'm so sorry
I didn't mean all those things

But I know, it's too late
You've got scar on your heart
with my name on it
I'm sorry...

An apology in advance
for your broken heart
I'm sorry for tearing up your heart
I'm sorry..

Wofgang Amadeus Mozart

Here are Leopald, Mozart, and his elder sister Nannerl.

What a wonderful picture!! I'm wondering if one day I have a family like this.. hahaha!! As we can see, Mozart's legs can't even touch the ground.. Cute!!

His unfinished Requiem... Uuuhh...

uuaaahhh!!!!!!!

phew....
I washed Herbie.. uuhh... so hot.. so tired..
he's getting bigger.. hohohohohoho...

Sunny Saturday

oohh.. I was sleepy this morning.. Ga jadi ke kampus.. hahahaa!!!
hari Senen, nilai ujian THT kluar... *_*
PPGD dibatalin.. haduh..!!!!!
hmm.. what else?
i'm feeling lonely.. It feels like everybody's gone..
they're going somewhere I don't know..
nothing left in my mind..
bye..

my poem

LOVE, REGRET, APOLOGIZE

My eyes start going red
My tears start falling down
Knowing I was too late
Knowing my time is up

I’ve been away too long this way
Without knowing what I’ve got
Now it’s too late
To apologize

You were the best thing that’s happened to me
But time is running out
Meeting new people
You’re falling down from my thoughts piece by piece

No more jokes, no more kidding
Never knew how you affected my life
Not even know how much you mean
Conversations with no words

Now you’re walking away
Leaving what was meant to be
Thinking of the time we had
And what made you glad

Feeling your pain
Maybe you wish you hadn’t done what you did
But I thank you and it will stick in my memory
Till the time I lose it